If being in a relationship was like getting an MBA I would be top of the that class. I come from a very troubled place today... I come from a place full of anguish, hurt and distrust. I am at the point in my life where this whole love thing seems to be a prank that the universe plays on some select few...
What is love...I thought I was in love...I thought that the things we did, the time we spent together all added up to the equivalent of love. The joke is on me, because the time we spent and the things we did did not equate to love...they only equated to lust on both our parts...My big issue right now is I seem to be in this recurring cycle...We break up, I find another, then it happens again, we smile, we hold hands, we take walks, we laugh. we cry, we vent, we argue then we make up, then finally we break up. The cycle never breaks...Why doesn't it break? Why cant I get that so called fairy tale ending?
Right now I am at the point where the cycle is beginning all over again...he pursues you, then it starts...One thing I know for sure is that I cannot go through this cycle all over again. I am afraid, afraid that if I go down this path, I will loose the essence of me which is being a woman of feelings...I do not want to go through the motions, I want to love and be loved...but do I really know what love is?
What is love?
